Dealing with a chronic illness makes you ponder life in a completely different way. I still feel as though I am at a stand still. At the end of the day I know the only way to change that is up to me. Where do I go to get motivated? I have a loving family around me that have picked up my medical finances since I lost my job, no questions asked. When I could no longer support myself they took me in, no questions asked. When I need medicine, co-pays, rides to doctors, help with simple everyday activities, they are there, no questions asked. Why is this not enough to make me feel completely whole and happy.