Ok, I started my book, Floating like a Butterfly about 10 years ago. The book is loosely based on my life and follows the main female character as she waits for love. The thing is 10 years ago that is where I was in my life, today is a completely different story. What I am waiting on now is acceptance from social security for my disability and not a man. I’m not feeling my original plotline, but would a book geared more towards lupus and where I am now be something people would grab off the shelves…wait a second, would it even be appealing to a publishing company. These are things to think about. It’s nice to be able to live through a person that I’ve created, but I’d also like to write down what I have been through because that is one hell of a story. So, are two books the answer? It will be a challenge but I’m up for it. May is Lupus Awareness Month so most of my blogs next month will be focusing on education in regards to lupus. The disease itself, symptoms, treatment, and living with a chronic illness. It affects more than just joints and body systems, relationships are tested, your mental state is tested, your sanity is tested, things that aren’t talked about as much. For example, I will cry if I misplace an envelope, this happened just last night and I have no idea how to handle these emotions. I am confused all of the time, I get in my car and will drive to the wrong doctor’s office and argue with the receptionist because they don’t have me scheduled. It’s embarrassing, but it is who I am now. I am a Lupie!!!