I will be 41 on Thursday, a little scary but, it is a fact. I have decided to live my life the way God has intended me to. I want to be happy and love myself no matter my size, circumstance, lupus activity, flare or not. It has been hard to stay in love with myself going through what I do with lupus and handling how it negatively alters my relationship with myself. I am currently going through a flare involving my kidneys and a flare up of my bronchitis that unfortunately because of the increase in my steroids will be more difficult to heal from. So it takes patience. I was so excited about therapy and now I just want to feel my normal. I’m so tired of being sick and then getting sicker. Changes need to be made sooner than later and its up to me to make them.